Free time = Me time

I’ve had a lot of free time to do some pretty intense soul searching.

I’ve come to realize that I need to take a different approach to how  I do things.

Not to say that my normal way of doing things is/was bad, I’m just kinda tired of how things have been.

I’m ready for a change.  It’s about time to try something new and see where it leads me.

thats all

Aspirar = To Aspire

There are a few thing in life that I aspire to be. Some are day to day aspirations, others are lifetime goals. I think my life will be complete if in the end It can be said that I was all of these things

  1. A good man
  2. A good father
  3. A good doctor
  4. A force for social change
  5. Honest
  6. Well-read
  7. Benevolent
  8. An authority on something
  9. Cosmopolitan
  10. Content

New City = New Beginnings

I’ve been here in Miami for over a week now. After a lot of work getting my new place together and getting all settled and adjusted I can say that so far I love this place. I know I haven’t even begun to scratch the surface of this place and there is so much to see and do.

I think I’ve been long over due for a change in scenery. That said, it’s still been hard. Saying bye and moving on from my comfortable life, and my comfortable friends and comfortable routines. Its feels great to be at the cusp of such a new and exciting thing. To be honest, the future used to scare me, I used to have an almost debilitating fear of the unknown and unpredictable. But now, beyond the healthy dose of new work jitters, I can honestly say that I am ready. I’m ready to go out into the unknown and chase the dream, learn and fall in love with new people and this new city.

 

Just because you feel it…

Lyric from one of my favorite Radiohead songs. Its so true.

People tend to see/feel what they want and not see the obvious. Its a natural response, I’ve been guilty of it many [MANY] times.  Its hard to figure out whats really there sometimes, the thoughts, emotions and feelings you have towards particular situations or people. Sometimes its hard to figure out whats real and whats not. Things can get so clouded.  If we’re honest with ourselves we tend to have an idea of what we’re doing, sometimes its not. Sometimes it just happens. We fall in love the thoughts and ideas of love or success and whatever else we want. Its funny how we get into situations and lose ourselves and our better sense. I guess the only solace is that it happens to the best of us.

I guess you gotta live in the moment and have no regrets. But also be smart and not trick yourself, because there are many people out there who would gladly do it for you.

Live and you learn.

Winter = El invierno

 

“In the depth of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer.”
Albert Camus

 

 

No te preocupes = Dont worry

-Weekend Warrior –

I’ve been having some great weekends. Last week was my birthday and a pretty epic weekend in LA and this weekend, which was much more low key but also fun. I got to catch up with some folk, made some great purchases and got it cracking in the  Karaoke  bar. So here is my 5 hot things and weekend round up all in one.

-Shoes-

Got some Doc Martens today. I forgot how much I liked them till i saw them. They are super comfortable and pretty sick

-Music-

Childish Gambino a.k.a. Donald Glover is dope

Its also pretty awesome that Arcade Fire actually won album of the year. This is kind of a big deal

– TV-

Watched some Community and Parks and Rec this weekend. I’m not all caught up on the new seasons, but it felt good to catch up on some of the best stuff on TV.

-Hobby-

This was my first week back at running full time, and it was a success. I want to work my way up to 13 mile runs within the next 10 weeks. I’ll keep yall updated on my progress.

-Life-

Caught up with one of the homies this weekend. We didn’t talk long but it felt good to find out I’m not the only one thinking this way lol. Getting older makes you think about life and all that grown folks stuff a lot. Things like marriage and career come up a lot [it feels surreal to be thinking about stuff like this]. I  always like to get other folks opinions and perspectives on things. I realize that its a good thing to have an idea of where Im headed and the things I want, the hard part for me is being open to the things I havent thought about, to experience the things meant for me that are unforeseen. I have this weird need for control in certain aspects of life and yet i have this spontaneous streak that is limited to other, seemingly less important, aspects of my life. The worst part is that nowadays they tend to overlap and I can’t turn it off.  Its tough, but I’m  really working on finding my middle ground. Im grateful that life is great for me now, im in a good place career wise and basically in a good place in general. Im just gonna be more open and follow my heart a little more. I mean i guess it cant hurt that much to see where it leads me.

well its late, so I gotta get read for bed.

PEACE, keep ya head up

Julio